Stuff Today

I shall post pics and the events for my daily activities today, later today.

What Happened This Time...

No idea how I find myself in this position again. It is getting to the point that I don't want to take advantage of like this ever again. It is making me sick how you can say one things and do the EXACT opposite. It is mind boggling. I'm astounded at how this has happened a second time. My question now is...Do you really like me? Do you really have time for a relationship? A real relationship? Don't say the things that you do, and run the other way! It's confounding. Did I really get suckered again? What did I do to deserve this? You must take into consideration the feelings of others. Especially the one you are interested in. On one hand I'm quite frustrated and ready to move on. On the other, she has true potential. On the first hand, should I move on it would only be to rekindle the love that I know I had in my hands. On the other, I can move on to a new beginning.

Tuesday!!

Today is Tuesday. I have to work. However, I only found out about this yesterday. Kinda peeved, but there is the option of going to a late show. Hopefully that is possible.

New Day

So I'm glad that Tuesday is tomorrow. Things need to be done and talked about with this coming date. I enjoy talking with this girl...a lot. But like I have said before: Communication is key. I shall only take it day by day. And I shall make my feelings known. This time I will be a tad bit more authoritative. But not pushy. I don't want to scare her away. Just to let her know my feelings about her and where I stand.

Last Night

I did not expect that at all. I was hoping for some fun, maybe a kiss. But her friends were there, so I understand. I ended up having a blast. Her voice. Her accent is just too sexy to pass up. I consider myself enthralled by her. I can't tell if its a good thing or bad thing.

On the other hand, the girl that I have communication problems with still doesn't want to call or text back. How much more obvious can I make it that if you call, I will answer. No matter what time it is. I had such high hopes for her. But it is all but vanished without trace because of the lack of communication. I can run into a wall only so many times before I get a headache.

Then there is the situation of Saturday. Sunday. And possibly Monday. I have been deprived for so long but it is just too tempting to pass up. But I think it is going to happen. It better be good.

Wednesday

Football practice today.
Bringing a buddy with me to play.
I want Friday to be here.
At least I'm off on Friday.
I do want to see this girl too.
Very cute.
Don't want to push it too hard.
I need to finish my laundry.
I am way behind on this.
Need to catch up and push it.
Then Saturday, Sunday and Monday might be hectic.
We shall see.
I just know that it is getting quite hard to keep focused.

Fashion Show @ The Four Seasons

White Party. Models. Girls. Pretty girls. Guys. Photos. Drinks. Flashing lights. Laughter. How did I get caught up in all this? Just a last minute call is all it takes apparently. Meeting new people. that's always the fun part. I used to be shy. Not as much anymore. "Make them laugh!" That seems to be my motto while at these events. I did meet a pretty girl after the show. I have no idea how it happened but I'm glad it did. And I'm glad I could open my mouth and talk to her. Also I'm glad that I didn't have anything to drink so I was in my right mind.

Things That I Do

The things that I do.
May not seem like the best at the time.
The things that I do.
Are always towards a higher goal.
The things that I do.
Make me seem foolish.
The things that I do.
Aren't for my own benefit.
The things that I do.
Can change how you think.
The things that I do.
Are for the better for most everyone.
The things that I do.
May never make sense.
The things that I do.
Make me feel so good inside.
The things that I do.
Can make you sweat for days on end.
The things that I do.
Can make you knees weak.
The things that I do.
Can give you goosebumps.
The things that I do.
Are meant for the lights to be off.
The things that I do.
Can have you forget what language you speak.
The things that I do.
Will have you tongue tied.

Advice

Some days I need to take my own advice. To relax. To calm down. You can't control everything so just chill. I admit I am not perfect and in that regard I will have to apologize.
My words of wisdom today are:
Be patient. Be the one to communicate first. Make the most of what you are dealt for today.

I missed a day

Crap. No reason for my tardiness. Just didn't keep track of time like I needed to. Very sorry about that. That just means that I get to write all day today while at work and give all ya'll a hopefully long story about my life! I promise it'll be more interesting than you think.

Writing

Sitting here at my computer.
Can't think of anything interesting to say.
Or write.
Things that I should say, I can't think of.
Things I can't think of are slowly coming to me.
But I can't say them.
Just to have someone to hold.
To talk to.
To hold onto and never let go.

And here are pictures from Japan!!

Here it is...

I'm gonna lay it all out there now. I promised myself to only write poems about positive things, and I shall. However, I have a few things I need to get off my chest first.

1.If you say you like someone...like them. Playing with emotions is juvenille.
2.Call every once in a while. In fact, texting isn't bad. The point is, stay in touch...Somehow.
3.Communication is crucial for me.
3a.If you don't/can't communicate, don't bother with trying to get to know me.
3b.If you still want to get to know me then you need to work on communication.
4.If you can't do any of the above. I will be upset in some way shape or form. I won't take it out on you. I promise. I will take it out on opposing players on the football pitch.
5.I will make every effort to give you the time and space to do what you need to do. I am very busy as I'm sure you are as well.
6.Further continuance of trying to get to know me without doing ANY of the above will result in me completely shutting you off. I get along better with my ex of two and a half years..She knows how to communicate, therefore I have no ill will towards her.

The key for me is effort. If you can show me that you want to work to make the relationship work, I can and will work with you. If I see no effort, you get no response from me. I refuse to "spin my wheels" while you lolligag. I've been there done that. No more. I made a promise to myself and if you know me, I keep my promises no matter what.

Dreads

So I started my dreadlocks last Thursday. I've been wanting to grow them out for a while now. I used to cut my hair supremely short growing up, and in the last few years I have wanted to grow out my hair. I used to think that I looked better with short hair. Then after a while I got used to longer hair. I realized you can do soo much more with hair than without. Yes, people took notice. Yes, I didn't mind the attention but also I liked the aspect of just letting nature take its course. After doing some of my own research, I found that this was the same reason for some religions to have dreadlocks.

My reason for going to dreadlocks is because the afro was too much work to maintain and I'm not that retro. I am not going to do cornrows for the rest of my life because I would look too gangster, which is one thing I am not. Dreads, like me, are simple, they require patience, and you can still have a lot of fun with them. Another good book to read on is Dreads.

Sunday Sunday

Today was a good day. I had fun with my friends playing football. Good laughs, good football, good friends, and a pretty good day outside. Sun came out for a little bit. I played well. Watched some friends play really well and win their division title. Had a really great day. Wished I could've talked to my girl for a little today. Made new friends the past few days. I'm glad I'm not as shy as I used to be. I've learned a lot over the past year about myself. I'm glad I can notice how I've changed for the better. I am no longer afraid to speak my mind. I can say how I feel to anyone now a days.

I need to start writing again. I have found a new muse. I have found a fire to write about that makes my heart fly high. I need to start writing again. Soon.

Let the creativity flow!!

For Charity

Today at 9am I will be playing in a charity match. Arsenal v. Chelsea fan match. I can't wait to get out there and play with everybody! And what's more is that it goes to help one of the fans rebuild his house that was burned down on Christmas. I enjoy helping people out and especially if others I care for vouch for them and give me a background story. This is a link to the Chelsea supporters, Jens is a buddy of mine who I respect greatly. He is one of the reasons why I consider myself stolen from England. Playful banter back an forth at the pub is how it is over in England. However, here in the states if you so much as say, "You're team is overpaid shite." Someone wants to fight you. I don't agree with that. It's called the beautiful game. Nike has ads for Joga Bonito . Adidas has, El Maestro, Zidane, as the finder of certain key players that every team needs.

Note to self. Promise to everyone.
It all changes from here on out.

Working Out

I need to get in shape. So bad. Now. Ok here it goes!
I want to look good for my girl. I want to look good for me. I don't want to look good for anyone else. I'm oblivious to the eyes of those who scrutinize and nit pick. I pick on myself enough as it is. I shall put my body to the test. I shall make it into a hard rock of muscle. Just not too much. I want to be powerful yet gentle. Controlled fury in a human shell.

Now I'm off to 24 Hr Fitness of William Canon. Join me? I'll be the one sweating!!

First off...

This is the first one. I shall talk about nothing more than things that are happening in my life, events, occurrences, romance, friends, good things, bad things, people who are awesome, things I should do, things I would encourage you to do, and funny things. I'm a quite light hearted guy and I roll with the punches. Though I don't like to be punched I just pretend it hurts and keep on going.

My mantra that I live by is; "Always persevere".

To me this means that NO MATTER what happens, you have to keep going. The reason being for that is that when I lost my Grandfather, something struck me about the entire wake, and funeral. I met so many people who knew him and they wanted to come up to me and shake my hand just so they could know his namesake...Needless to say I knew that I had big shoes to fill. But everyone that I met told me that after talking with me they knew I would be great.

...Wow...

I wanted to cry. I did cry. And it still is hard for me 5 years later every September. But I keep on going and it has gotten better for me. I have surrounded myself with people I love. I have found a girl that makes me soar. And I live my life to make my Grandfather proud.